Has it been 2 1/2 weeks since Jordan was born? Wow - time just keeps on moving! Again - no deep thoughts or wise words. As a matter of fact - I'm lucky if I can remember what day it is and since my watch died three days ago - I'm never quite sure of the time anymore (except for when Jordan wakes in the middle of the night and I blindly look at my clock). As for deep thoughts - my brain feels fuzzy most of the time and Dr.Pepper is once again my BFF. But even through the lack of sleep, fuzzy brain, and squishy butt and belly - the minute Little J looks at me with her big blue eyes I just melt. She is a sweet baby and even her sisters still think she's the greatest. So far Jordan has gone through a bout of jaundice, is battling her first little cold and yesterday was diagnosed with thrush (which explained her unusual fussiness and my stinging nipples). Hopefully, we'll get everything cleared up soon. Of course, there is no way I would have survived the past two weeks without the help of my mom and my wonderful friends and church family. I have heard the "it takes a village" comment a lot lately - and at times it is true. So thank you everyone for all your help with food, prayers, and bedtime routines - you've been amazing!

She's a girl! Jordan Joy arrived May 3rd at 9:55 am weighing in at 7lbs 10oz and 19 1/2 inches long. Kaelea made it to the hospital to help with the labor at just the right time. Lanny and I got to the hopital at 7:30 a.m. and I was able to effectively prove to the nurse my contractions were real in about 5 minutes. I was taken to a L&D room just when Kaelea arrived. Lanny was so relieved for her help he got a little teary eyed. It must be so hard to see your wife doubled over in pain. Things moved quickly and I was ready to push our little treasure out by 9a.m. Of course, Jordan decided to give everyone a little scare but dropping her heart beat. For about 30 min things were touch and go - OR was prepped for a C-section but after much prayer on my part and great help from everyone - I was able to push Jordan out. It was another painful, exciting, wonderful blessing! We got home from the hospital Monday evening (Jordan had some jaundice issues and got to hang out under a special light for 12 hours - giving us a little longer stay in the hospital). We are all doing great with the usual adjustments. Kezia is so glad that we had a baby and wants to hold her all the time. In the hospital she asked me "can we keep her forever???" - how cute! Eden loves her baby sister but hangs on to mommy whenever she can - she will need some extra attention. Jordan and I are still working out our nursing technique and it's been a little rough on mommy. But she only wakes up once in the evening for about an hour so right now I'm not too upset about her all day feedings (or at least that's what it feels like). But I'm sure we'll both be pros in another week or two. Thank you to all of our family and friends who have been such great help this past week - and will be in the weeks to come. I'm a little overwhelmed at the thought of caring for these 3 little girls. I know that we will get things worked out - I'm just not sure yet how. Well - off to sleep while I can.

Nope - no baby yet. We past the bumped up due date yesterday and are heading for the original due date of May 1st. I have settled it in my mind that a May baby would be great. Besides - what's four more days at this point? It is funny how whenever I call anyone to chat I have to start the conversations with - "no - no baby yet" - I've almost stopped calling people because I don't want to get their hopes up but I'm such a social person - I must have my face-to-face - or at least a few phone chats =) I'm sorry to say that there is not much new here to report. Although my mental state of mind is a little better we're still living in the world of limbo - just trying to go one day at a time until this baby comes and then of course we'll be living one nap at a time. I'm learning from this experience by trying not to put too many things on hold because there is always something that comes along that throws a little kink into your life. Well - off to take a nap while I can. As soon as this little guy/gal decides to make his/her grand entry - we'll start calling everyone! I'm looking forward to starting my conversations with "THIS IS IT".

Playing the waiting game. I really thought this little baby growing inside of me would follow his/her sisters' example and come out early - but, no - we're still pregnant. Last week was tough because I felt 'sure' this is it several times only to have everything slow down again. But, good things come to those who wait, right? (Who said 40 weeks is best???) I think it helps that I'm trying to change my mindset and not expect this baby early. It takes the pressure off and has really helped me to get through my days feeling a little more productive. I still poop out quickly - and with the contractions still coming through out the day - I get a little grumpy by bedtime - but on the whole I feel a little less overwhelmed. The girls have been crazy - fighting, crying, hitting me, etc - I think they feel the atmosphere of limbo but don't really understand it. But it has been so cute when they come up and kiss my stomach and sing to the baby. So for now we wait...

So yesterday we celebrated Eden's 3rd birthday (along with her Auntie Casey's birthday). Fun times had by all but Eden was just so excited. After dinner she went and sat on the couch just looking at all the presents trying to wait patiently for everyone to finish eating so we could eat birthday cake and open presents. For weeks whenever we prayed Eden thanked God for her friends and for her Birthday cake. Such simple things to be thankful for. And she had no doubt that there would be a birthday cake. Such trust. Such confidence. She didn't ask God for a birthday cake - she thanked Him in advance for the cake she knew would be there. How often do I pray with that same trust and confidence? I ask God for LOTS of things - and I know that He is faithful to hear my prayers - but can I honestly say that I believe wholeheartedly that I will see an answer? I love to pray - I think it is one the best gifts God has given us - to be able to, at any time, communicate with our Lord - to share our hurts, desires, joys, whatever. And for Him to communicate with us. He wants to pour so much into our hearts, lives, spirit - so much wisdom, discerment, love - if we would just come to him - if we would just seek His face - if we would just be still and know. I want to have that childlike faith and assurance about my prayers that Eden has for hers. Whether it be a birthday cake or salvation for several of my family members - I want to thank God in advance - with trust and confidence that He can, and will, do abundantly more than we can ask.

No deep thoughts. I feel like I should write something deep and meaningful as I read many of my blogger friends' posts but the only thing I come up with 'where is that lip balm for my hospital bag'. Technically I have about 4 weeks until Baby arrives but with my history it really could be any day. Which freaks me out. I wake up in the middle of the night thinking about packing my suitcase, the need to buy diapers, what if it is a boy, what are going to name this child, will I really know if it's time to go the hospital - but most importantly - can I be a good mom to 3 kiddos... K & E are troopers and thankfully love going to other people's houses to play - but I feel like all I say these days is "maybe later - stop doing that - don't stick your tongue out at your sister (or mommy!) - don't chase the dog - I'm tired - let's all take a rest (which, BTW, never works). As I tell myself, and have been reminded by friends - this is a season. Hopefully the girls' will remember this as the time they got to spend a lot of time with friends =) Anyway - no deep thoughts - I'm just so glad that God has a plan so that when I do freak out I can just sit back and cry knowing that He is in control and will continue to give me the strength and endurance to get through this wonderful, challenging season of life.

Well really - has it been almost 18 months? I did say that I would blog "sparingly" =) Actually, it took me this long to remember my login and password and finally just had to create a new one. But I'm excited because now I can respond to all my friend's blogs with my comments, thoughts, etc. But I might as well update things a little here. We've settled into the new house - the one we moved into almost two years ago. We've been doing some moving around since we are expecting Baby Tucker to arrive in the next 2-4 weeks. The girls got new bunk beds and daddy put a closet organizer in Kezia's old closet for the girls to share. Kezia thinks its a dream come true since she can now reach all the clothes and changes several times during the day. I'm a little worried about her new fashion conscious attitude and her desire to be pretty - but she is a Princess after all. Hopefully daddy and I can provide a little balance in regards to inner and outer beauty. Oh, the joys of having daughters. Kezia and Eden love jumping into the crib and taking turns being the "baby" - which they now believe will be a boy (that probably will change back to a girl next week =) Of course with me fighting a yucky head cold/sinus infection and contracting all the time the girls are hurting for some serious energy releasers. They look forward to seeing the mailman in hopes of a new Netflix - and yesterday we had a guy look at our heating ducts and you would have thought by the girls' reaction that he came to play with them. Poor things - but as I keep telling myself - this is just a season of life that will pass quickly. Too quickly really and as much as I gripe about feeling miserable, having heartburn, not fitting into anything, swollen ankles, not sleeping, peeing all the time, tired and just plain crabby - there will come a day when all I will remember is how this little bundle somersaulted inside of me and how my little girls put their hands on my tummy and prayed for their newest sibling. Ah, the bliss of mommy amnesia.

Well here it is a month later and I'm entering in my second post. Who knew I would be so active =) Thanks Amanda for posting a comment - how exciting! I may do this more often if I actually get people responding. We have been in our new house for about 6 weeks and slowly but surely things are coming along. The kitchen is our current project and what was to be a 4-5 day event is now in it's 4th week. Thankfully we have running water and everything is mostly functional - we just have some electrical and detail things to go. It should be very nice - when it's done.
Kezia and Eden say howdy and hope Colorado is great. Kezia went poo-poo on the potty for the first time today and it was very traumatic! the wee-wee we have down but who knew pooping could cause just hysterics. but that may be more info than anyone really wanted to hear about on this blog - but tune in next time to see what's happening.

So I've finally started a blog. Just always reminds me to never say never! But if I want to comment on my friends blog I need to have my own "spot" so here we are. I have no idea what to write and really should go get Kezia off the potty seat since she probably has a little ring around her bottom by now - of course, no action on that front. Can you tell already what my life is about =) Actually I feel so blessed to be at home with Kez and Eden - they crack me up everyday - not to mention the lessons I learn in patience and endurance! But every day we look for the fruitful happenings in our life and thank God for His blessings.